Today was another rough one. When there are groups here they typically split up and go into different areas of CIPI. I tend to spend most of my time in special needs with my little girl. But today I felt like I needed to stay in the baby area. As I was sitting there with a few other people, one of the girls started to open up to us about what happened to her. She said she was molested by two of her uncles and got pregnant. She's not sure who's baby it is. She ran away from home, and ended up in the hospital. At first she wanted to get an abortion. But then the nurses talked her out of it and she said about a month before she had the baby she accepted the fact that she was going to be a mother. She knew that it was God's plan.. This girl is 13. A 13 year old is making that decision.. So we talked to her, and we talked about what a blessing her baby is.
There is a baby there who we all love because she is just the perfect age; 4 months. So you can hold and cuddle her, but she'll smile at you too. Virginia told us that the baby's mother tried to kill her by sitting on her. Thankfully she survived.... A few hours later I was rocking one of the new borns, and a lady came and asked if anyone wanted to help pray over the baby who was leaving. Apparently the baby's mother came to take her home. And they let her... Who in the world lets a mother who tried to kill her baby, have that baby back?
I know God has a plan. I know He does. But right now I'm having trouble getting past the horrible sin this world has. And I need everyone to pray for that baby. I'm just praying her mother had a change of heart, and found the Lord.
Baby, I just read your last two posts. My heart cries out with yours; it's the response anyone with the slightest hint of God in them makes when they see such pain. Over the years, I found myself vascilating between running to that pain to help and running from it because of the hopelessness. What I've learned is, when Paul says in 1 Cor 13 that "the greatest of these is love," truly, the greatest gift we give another heart is love. It doens't mean we don't do all we can to improve their situation, but we've seen in America what helping someone's situation without touching their hearts does; it creates an unstainable welfare system that traps people in the hopelessness of not having indigent poverty, but heither having a hopeful future because, while their circumstances have changed, their character hasn't. The love you're showing these girls is a language they will always remember. We WILL (as Greg Garrett and others have taught us) work to improve their conditions the best we can. But NEVER lose the energy and confidence that God's love through you builds a fiber in their spirits that will carry them further than you can imagine.
ReplyDeleteI love you, I'm so proud of you and I'm praying for you daily.
You're too smart for your own good.
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